What are you truly capable of?

Have you thought of this question? You used to eh, but experiences brought you down to earth. Life hasn't been so kind, eh?
A while back this happened to me too.. Experiences dashed my expectations.. totally devastated my aspirations. I went through a period of introspection, a reality check basically. I regrouped my self (literally), assessed my situation and decided that
giving in my best in whatever I do is the best thing to do.
'I will give in my best. It doesn't matter what I am doing. Give in your best. opportunities will come knocking. Keep giving in your best.' Well, yes this policy did help me out. I am on a new path right now having steered clear of my old self, old life, old surroundings. Life is uncertain, but I am beginning to accept that.
When you are an undergraduate, you are in a secure, protective cocoon. You feel you are invincible, that life is going to be smooth sailing when you graduate. No my dear, no. Life isn't smooth sailing. Life is about being smooth during rough sailing.
Life rocks your boat, but you got to maintain your calm. You got to be an unaffected observer. Life teaches you through experiences. Every calamity in life, every miserable moment in life is indicating something. It is upto you to introspect, investigate that misery and come to a new understanding of what works and what doesn't. The sooner you do that, the sooner you learn.. your lessons. And then it's smooth sailing for a while, until you get rocked again. But this time, you are quicker in learning the lesson... noticing a pattern to the experiences..A high always is followed by a low and vice-versa. The bigger the high, the deeper the low.
And this understanding changes your character, slowly but gradually. You realize the importance of equanimity..you place a high emphasis on being equanimous. You recognize that equanimity is a deadly weapon, a powerful tool to handle all that life throws at you. Through equanimity, you realize that life hasn't be throwing the kitchen sink at you as you imagined.. you realize that life has actually blessed you with cleansing opportunities... experiences that force you to clear the old and bring in the new.
Ok, we went off on a tangent or a secant there, it was hard not to. Let's get back to the original intent of the post. 'What are you truly capable of?'
Being a dreamer that I am, I ask myself these questions once in a while. I think it doesn't help being a dreamer. Why? Because, I think what you are actually, truly capable of in life goes beyond imagination. But dreaming does help me get atleast one light-year close to what I am truly capable of. I recognize that dreaming is not enough. Dreams need to be translated to reality. Well, this isn't something new, as you might concur. All technology that we use today was dreamt by some great dreamer.
But the dreamer also converted his dreams into reality. That's what we should aim for. We should first dream up the great person within us, whom we are yet to experience and then we convert that dream to reality - That is we become that great person, that humble albeit astounding personality, that equanimous character who lead by her/his example, that leader who left an indelible footprint on the sands of time. We dream, we become. We dream, we become. So on and on.. until infinity. Welcome to the game.. called life.

I could have...

I could have.... I would have.... I should have....
But, "Now" is all I have!!!